Counting days

Praise to God for the guidance and strength for this 3rd pregnancy until now im 37 weeks. Yay. Now im counting days to meet our bundle of joy. The feeling is not that overwhelming compared to when i was welcoming my firstborn. But one thing for sure im nervous and sometimes im lost. Mixed emotion to be exact. Im not sure if im strong enough to face those painful contraction, the stitching process, sleepless night and taking care of a newborn (and his/her siblings) and healing process…..but i have to be just positive. I hope everything will be easy to handle. God willing.

Hospital bags were all ready. What i prepared are all those basic essentials. To be frank i did not spent much on buying stuffs this time around. Haha im too leniet with baby no 3. Cheapskate. But this time round i made an effort to make some handmade stuff, a simple one. A bedding set including baby nest, mattress, dimple pillow and bolster.

I also did not buy any confinement set for myself because i forsee that im not gonna use it. Since im staying with my mum, those herbal drink and herbal bath will be easily available. I can at least rely on her on this 😁. Im a bit concern who gonna prep my meal until i feel better (hopefully within a week). I know my mum/sister willingly cook for me but sometimes its uncomfortable yeah the tought of bothering them to feed me. Need to discuss with husband about this.

Last but not least, hoping for easy and smooth delivery. And i hope that i pop earlier naturally before 3rd July so that i dont have to go through the induction process. Because i have this GDM and giving birth to a baby over my due date is a NO-NO. Finger crossed.

So here is an almost 38 weeks belly shot for keepsake. Sorry for the dirty mirror 😁.


Finally the last few weeks

Hello everyone! There are a lot to update but my no.3 pregnancy journey is the most important of all.

Finally im 34 weeks and literally i have 5 weeks more before the grand entrance of No. 3. Finally !!! These few weeks i’ve been experiencing much more pressure down there. May be baby is on the way engaging. And i cant walk properly now. Waddling all day and getting up from lying/sitting position is challenging.

Anyway i’ve washed all the baby clothes and did a final check on baby essential and gears. After scanning Hazel’ and Luke’s baby clothes, there are still more than enough for baby no.3 but i still bought a few new sleepsuit. And i had started packing baby’s bag. But still need to buy dispo diaper and few essential (bathing/ointment and etc). I have not sort my stuff yet but may be next week.

Gender? The other day the doctor tell me that no.3 is a girl but she was not very sure yet but anyway as long as i have a smooth and safe delivery and a healthy baby. Im beyond thankful.

This 3rd pregnancy i cant enjoy much eating cause yeah im GDM (go google it). Im on carb/sugary food restriction diet. But sometimes i did eat those high sugar food with limited quantity.. i cant help it!!!! Before i pop, i have another one blood sugar profile session to check my glucose level. Hopefully all is ok and the reading will be all good.

I will blog again before i poop! Hopefully!

16 weeks to go

While i am still have the mood and energy to blog about baby No. 3, let just me embrace this period by updating some of the details. Currently 24 weeks along and about 16 weeks to go to my due date.

Lets start!


We still yet to find out. Baby No. 3 was a bit shy to show to us because he/she was facing down and obviously its was impossible to find out. The sonographer tried few times to move him/her. But the way i carry No. 3 is just like when i was pregnant with Luke. My belly is pointy! So baby boy? πŸ€”

Weight gain and physical change

I gained almost 8kg since my first visit to the clinic at 8 weeks. That a lot! My usual weight gain based on my 2 previous pregnancy was 14kg. I hope i dont gained so much because it will be hard for me to shed them later after delivery. Physically, well im bigger now. Puffy everywhere! Double chin is so obvious, thigh and hips are so big already 😫.

Pain and discomfort

No major pain experienced at the moment but i did feel slight pain around my pubic bone once in a while. It’s come and goes. Sometimes nausea come to say hi. But as my pregnancy progress, bloating is my daily bestfriend. To ease them, i just nap and nap. I cant do much. And finding a comfortable sleeping position is quite challenging and i know it will get more challenging later.

Baby’s movement

The kick/punch/somersault/squirming is getting stronger day by day. Some day baby love to just kick and punch .. and someday baby really move hard and push my bladder and well mummy have to rush to the toilet to pee but sometimes hahaha can’t control it!! 🀣🀣🀣

Mummy’s health

Like my 2 previous pregnancy, i always have this hemoglobin issue. Its not that bad but 11 or more is the safe reading but i achieved 11.2 (yeah) during my visit to the clinic early this month and i hope it maintain that way so i dont have to be poked for every 2 weeks.

That all i can think of right now. I really hope that the remaining 16 week will be a smooth sailing journey. πŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

Till then.

The joy of reading together

The struggle is real. That a correct word to define my current situation helping Hazel in her able-to-read journey.

Now i knows that teaching 6yo to read is not easy as 123. Even tougher to cultivate the love for reading in her. Distraction (and fear) in Hazel still high. I’ve started reading with her a week ago starting with Bahasa first but huh everytime she will cry even before commencing a short lesson. But i still insists her to finish reading (read : spelling) those simple sentences twice a day. A lot of whining, excuses and wailing from her. I know that forcing her might give her a nightmare in the future and this will definitely dont bring any good for both of us but frustration and upset.

I wont’t permits those happening even in seconds. As i said earlier it will not a smooth sailing journey but i have to do/try anything that work out for her and not that one work out for me right. I should not asking her to follow my way. This is so wrong of me thinking that way. Ughh. So let’s tweak mummy’s plan okay Hazel. We try every fun and interesting options that work out for you Hazel.

I feel somehow writing this like Hazel in a really critical condition for not able to read. She is not yet able to read now. Correction for myself.

Let’s try which way you favour.

So, when we were at KK for a CNY’s holiday last February i bought a ‘trial’ cheap English story book entitled Cinderella from Ninso. Hazel was so excited and i lost count on how many times we read the book together. And i can see that she enjoying repeating after me every word (while me pointing the word).

Then i decided to get another few pieces before going back to Ranau. Yeah an RM 2.50 per pc is steal right. Im not sure if these book are good, (esp in term of grammer, and this mummy too is not that sharp in grammer πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚) my main intention is to bloom Hazel’s interest in reading and to boost her confidence. I feel that those are the most important by now and the rest hopefully will follows.

Now that im reading with Hazel and i feel that its too at least therapeutic and it’s somehow spark joy within me – as per Marie Kondo’s famous principle in tidying clutters. So since it spark joy, i should continously doing it and keep doing it to achieve it!! Well, it’s look like that i have to postponed my goal to be back in reading book. May be i just pretending reading a nice plot story book while reading with Hazel πŸ˜‚? Possible? Lol.

Let’s do this together darling baby. We read together everyday okay darling?!

Wish me luck.


Last week when we were at Hazel’s kindy, her teacher keep on praising on Hazel’s achievement on reading. She is now actually grasping the reading quite fast. I have not really witness her reading a long sentence but according to the teacher Hazel’s did her Ujian Penilaian all by herself without guidance. The test supposed to be done next week but Hazel did it when the teacher shows them the paper. I hope she will finally able to read this year. Good luck Hazel!

No. 3 : Second Trimester

Currently at my 21 weeks gestation age. Thanks God that most of my unpleasant symptoms gone between 14w and 15w. Im super thankful for the strength going through those phase successfully even with a lot of whining, crying and complaint. Well some may go ‘ meh its only a morning sickness, everyone who is pregnant going through the same’ but trust me every pregnancy is different. Even this is my 3rd pregnancy the experience is totally different with my first two.

I gained 6kg since my first visit at KKIA at 8 weeks and those weight really show up now. Puffy here and there. Luckily this time i did bought two maternity pants last December because the old one is too worn out and i started getting so big at 10 weeks. I cant fit to my regular pants anymore. I can’t imagine how do i look until the day i delivered her/him. Finger crossed that my weight gained will stay at standard phase.

We yet to found the gender. If you ask my preference, i prefer girl of course. Mummy’s gang of course 😍. But whatever the gender is, im okay as long as everything is fine.

Roughly i still have 19 weeks more to welcome the no.3. I have not prepared anything yet. I still want to dig those old clothes of Hazel’s and Luke’s then only i can decided what to buy.

Okay that all for today. See you next time.



A better year

Hellooooo! Happy New Year! I know im a bit late to wish but better than never. I know most of you had done a 2018 recap and reflection what last year had brought to you.


Im not so sure (or its just me beacuse i did not really spent time to reflects on things) what actually happened last year that really significant to me. But for sure im beyond grateful and blessed for everything because im still alive and breathing freely !!!! Another year had passed just like that!! Scary how times flies so fast.

Im not going to do a recap because i know its nothing interesting 🀣🀣. Let just move forward. Shall we?!

Last two nights when the kids were soundly sleeping and suddenly there was a ‘knock’ at my head asking me to do something or at least thinking. Ahaks finally i can put my rusty brain again to process stuffs expect those daily routine i had to do everyday, well kids and chores. I admits that I rarely spend time on thinking/planning nowadays because the current ‘brain’ i have. Pregnancy brain haha.

After about 30 minutes i sum up few things that i should put my attention on this year. Im not going to elaborate them in details tho.

  • Family saving. We should cut out eating out this year. Once a week should be okay? The price of eating out is insane now!! And since we are expecting a new family member early July, saving is a must.
  • Family first. I must priortize my loved one than any others. Well this is we all supposed to do right?
  • Less drama. Well we cant avoid gossips totally but i should less care discussing unimportant stuffs. Gossiping does not bring any good.
  • Doing my very best in everything. Well its normal to have a rainy and stormy day. Daily bumps is everywhere but remain positive is the key!!!!
  • Read more. I should really start reading again and making it as a habit. But price of the books nowadays is pain in the ass. May be i can buy a preloved one.

Not a very detail missions but im glad i did not stand off to at least having a short thought about how im going to live the 2019.

Last but not least, i wish you all the best in whatever you plans/aims for this year. May God lead your path and strengthen you!! Good luck.

Cheers to 2019.

Love, Beaty 🧚

December and 12 weeks along

Holla everyone!!!! Merry Christmas everyone!!! Thankful for another year to celebrate Christmas. God is not only good to us but He’s been really so amazing to each everyone of us!!!!!

Few more days to Christmas! And the only things that sorted by now is our Christmas dresses. Nothing fancy of course. I did not manage to sew our dresses this year as i wanted it to be due to my condition right now. Im not happy for not being at least sew a simple dress for Hazel. But yeah things happens.

And now i still have some in hand need to be sorted ; Christmas presents, baking a biscuits, finalizing the Christmas’s tree decor, planning a menu for Christmas’s open house and cleaning the house. Gosh seems so many! Only can start tomorrow as my sisters and nieces will come here at my mum’s house and we will do it together. Hopefully those can be settled in a day and i can attend the Christmas’s services at the church at ease.

Usually I will start doing things early for Christmas’s preparation but not this year as i have to deal with my morning sickness. Now im 12 weeks along (Yes we are pregnant with Baby No. 3!!) and sooooo grateful that most of my symptomps gone few days ago. I still have those nausea, headache and bloated tummy but its now bearable compared to last 4 weeks ago. I cant even cook and fatigue was at its peak to force me having a power nap twice a day 😫. So thankful for the kids as they were quite understanding. Even my 3yo boy knew that his mommy is not in a good shape to entertain him. Those 4 weeks energy draining period somehow remind me to always grateful and thankful for everything! God is really amazing. He made me to go through those 4 weeks period without fail!!!!

I will blog more in the future about my journey with Baby no.3. So hopeful that this journey is a smooth sailing!! πŸ’ͺπŸ’ͺ

Meanwhile, Merry Christmas in advance to each everyone of you!!! Let us celebrate this season with love, joy and happiness!!!! God bless!!

Lots of love !!

Oh Can’t Wait

It is November and we are about a half month away for the most joyful celebration of the year. Christmas!! Oh i cant really wait for that ! I bet everyone is excited!!!! Well who does not?

Will starting doing shopping this month end. New dresses for the kids and some presents for the family. Im not planning to buy a new dress for myself because to be frank i still have few dresses that i seldomly use. But lets hope that i still can fit into them πŸ˜‚.

Now listing a present one by one for the family members. Every year present hunting took longest period to be sorted because with a certain budget of course you can’t buy something overpriced. Lets do the best in presents hunting.

Well move on the Christmas tree decoration. Im not sure what color theme to go for this year. Well i always go for basic color btw. Will only starting to pull out the tree from its storage by end of this month too.

We go slowly okay!

And this year i hope i can sew a new curtain for the living room (at my mom’s place). Its too old and out of style.

Well i hope what i have planned for the upcoming Christmas celebration will successful.

Have a nice day.

Journal #3

It’s been almost a month since my last post. Gosh time did flies real quick. We have few more weeks to end the year. I cant believe it.

Well im not sure what to post but may be i do some recap for the past few weeks.

Visited KK Light Festivals. And i did not enjoy it because of the super crowded. I hardly cant breathe. Taking picture was a hassle too. Too many people thus the chance to have a nice picture is almost none.

Both kids were not in mood by the way

It was Luke’s 3rd Birthday on last 5th Oct we did celebrated it the day after. Just a very simple celebration at home with a candle blowing and that all.

Mummy not in the picture 😒 with a almost melted cream cake 😁😁

Had a chance to paint and brush lettering. Im not into watercolor nowadays thus my painting is just like that. I did not practice a lot nowdays thus crappy painting.

A very random painting without purpose

And very recently last weekend as per in law’s request we managed to do some paddy seeding paddy planting next month. This is just for fun but it did bring me to the old time when my parents used to drag all of us sibling to really plant paddy to survive. Huh. Those were the days.

Luke, now you cant run away from planting paddy soon 😁

That all!

Have a nice week ahead!!!!!

Journal #2

FYI, i wont do journalling (here in wordpress) in regular basis. I only do this when i feel to do it. I admit that journaling is something looks easy but it doesnt!

Lets start!

15th Sept

While i was roaming around the house’s compound i noticed a familiar plant growing between a bushes and when i look closer, it was a snake plant. Well, indoor plant has been hit and so-in nowadays in Instagram. Im not yet turn to gardening lover at the moment but i guess i have this little interest on them.

So i plucked and transfered it into a vase. Now my 3 little succulents have a new friend.

17th September

Stay at home all day because husband was back to KK the day before and we spent the whole day at home. Planned to do some hiking in the evening but too bad it was drizzling. There is always next time.

18th September

Luke’s appoitment at Hospital Ranau to find out his blood test. As anticipated, he is a Thalessemia carrier, just like his daddy. No wonder his hemoglobin was always low at 9 -10 even after having an iron supplement. There is no problem about being a carrier of beta thalessemia but now i know he is, i have to advise him in the future when it is the time for him looking for a partner. And Hazel might be a carrier too as her full blood charcteristic showing some indication. I myself did a Thalessemia screening before we got married it was normal but i still doubt.

19th September

Manage to complete another dress for Hazel. I loves sewing dress for her because kids use less fabric. 2 meters of fabric can produce a cute dress.

I made this off the shoulder dress with a double full circle skirt which made this dress cuter. For the skirt alone it uses 1.5m of 45inch width of fabric for a just below knee length. When i asked her to tried it she cant stop twirling like a princess 😁. Thinking to add some sequin and lace because it is too plain black.

20th September

As usual woke up and prep my girl for school. My mum cooked breakfast today and i took the chance to do the laundry and having a juice!

A carrot + green apple and celery juice for the day. Its been 4 days since i did juicing for breakfast. No more coffee!

That all for journal #2. Hopefully can post some online journal.

See you.

God bless!

🌺Beaty J