I made a promise to myself to not to blog about a personal stuff here but i guess i cant keep that promise. I dont know that what im going to blog later consider personal but yeah just bear with me.
I often had this bitterness inside me. It comes and goes. I feel that i already settled down and letting go but instead it came back and bothering, leaving the mindless me. It even affects my sleeping pattern. Waking up in the middle of the night is not normal you know. Next morning i woke up very cranky because of the lack of sleep.
I keep on asking and assess myself what actually i did wrong. Knowing me, im the type of person not easily letting out what i really feel. I rather keep everything inside. And this will lead to overthinking and bla bla. When it reach to the capacity that i cant carry anymore………….i thought im going insane for real. I cant focus and doing something mindlessly is so torturing.
I hate this kind of period where i feel so loss and confused.